As some of you may know, I struggle with loss of vision, to look at me you wouldn't even know but I am partially blind in one eye and it is slowly getting worse as time goes on.
I spent a decade trying to repair the issue, as the eye is one organ that can repair itself. Unfortunately for me this has turned out to not be the case in this situation. For some unknown reason several blood vessels behind my pupil burst, this caused a grey spot in my vision because I was actually seeing through the pooled blood. I saw 4 different eye specialist and none of them could tell me why this had happened. I went through several different proceedures, starting with (medication in liquid form) injections, then tried three lazer proceedures, and then steroid injections that deposited a small pill into my eye for a slow release process.
The vision would correct for a short time then the cloud would return. After about a year and a half of the steroid injections (mind you this was a total of 6 injections) I could not see and the vision was not correcting as it had been previously. I soon learned why, I had developed a steroid induced cataract in that eye. I honestly had not realized how much vision I had lost until after having the cataract surgery. I could now see the scaring from the lazer proceedures that I didn't realize where even there before and the cloud was back and it was now a black spot. After some images were taken of my eye I could also see the dead blood vessels. The area's past the locations of the burst where unable to get blood so they died. That I have come to learn is not something that can be fixed.
But I continued with the shots for another two and a half more years and developed steroid induced glacoma. Once this developed and the shots were no longer allowing a break in the spot, nor allowing partial correction to my vision I decided it was time to stop the injections due to the fact that they were (in my opinion) causing more damage then they were helping the situation or correcting it. I knew this meant my sight would eventually be gone in that eye. The lack of vision in the one eye has now caused a strain on the once healthy eye and I can no longer read without reading glasses. The words and numbers are blurred blobs of ink until I put on the glasses, then they are less blurred but still not crystal clear as they should be.
I refused to allow this impairment to keep me from continuing things as I do them until I can no longer do them on my own, this includes my writing, and artistic graphic designs. I love to create the images for my covers and my posts. It maybe a bit unprofessional looking at times but it is authitically me and that is how I want to continue until I can't. So, if my images look a little off, you now can understand it isn't because I don't care, it is because of a vision issue and some would say stubbornness but when something gives you joy, it isn't something you want to give up easily.