I have talked about the fact that I have vision issues and what those issues are but I have not actually talked about the darker side of this situation.
I have kept it mostly to myself and kept my writings about it with a positive outlook regardless of the reality of what is coming.
The past two weeks have been rough, there have been multiple times where even wearing the glasses have not helped clear the vision of the blurry images.
Losing my sight is not an easy thing, knowing it is coming has taunted me over the years. I have done my best to keep the negativity at bay and focusing on the fact that today I can still see.
(This is an xray of my left eye)
However, when I have weeks where everything is coming and going, images are harder to make clear, push the ability to keep a positive outlook going.
I can feel my eyes getting tired where as before it was not something I could actually feel until I couldn't make out images, letters, or words. It has now progressed to larger things, faces, dishes, & even food items when I am cooking.
I am holding on to the fact that colors are still vibrant and not dulling but I am not looking forward to when this starts happening.
It is times like this that I have to ask, is it better to know it is coming or to have it just happen all at once. I am still not sure I have a definitive answer. I can't even say, if given a choice, would I take the long road or the short road.
Even sitting down and doing the pros and cons to both questions doesn't even out the choice, at least not for me. I hate the wondering if today will be the last day or if I will get one more.
What I can say is both choices suck! Which would you choose, long or short?
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